Long time since I updated. Sorry friends I hadn't been uploading your photos onto facebook, that's 'cause my laptop apparently has a lower flash version than that of facebook so uhhhhhh it's been giving me 'Upload has failed' at 100% and it really throws me into a fit, but don't worry, I will (might) be getting a new one this weekend and then I would be able to upload photos again :)
Anyway, my life's been baaaaaaad. My poor MP3 has gone to IT heaven, and I have a really bad blepharitis that's killing me, making me look like someone punched me in the eye.
Nothing much happened of the late. All I can say is, I celebrated Zhi Jun's birthday with my classmates, crashed NTU, went kite-flying with chun and bear, and sent chun off to london last night. In the span of two months. In before xuan says that I'm not socially deprived but lol I am luh. Everyone's been really caught up with their new lives, it's been hard to meet up with everyone else. I know I have my friends, it's just that I just don't feel as close as I used to be with them. Now, it's more like awkward talk and stuff like that. I find myself holding back a lot, I don't feel comfortable talking to people, I'm like now socially awkward. I just want to be back in school again, at least be a part of something. Everyone's talking about school, camps, stuff, I don't know what to say actually. It's great to see my friends once in a while, but I find it a pity that I can't keep up with them, or at least have topics to talk to them about. All I can say is about the past, which everyone's pretty much bored of already. I have great colleagues too. I enjoy laughing at what they're talking about, but somehow, I can't seem to integrate with them, because I'm not really as witty as they are, I can't find things to talk to them about. Eh, it's either my creativity is dying down, or that I'm starting to not handle social stuff well anymore. Not that I was a master at socialising before, but at least I could keep up a conversation with someone else. Right now, I can't even keep up a conversation with anyone, it would be like a few lines, and then, awkward silence. It's difficult for me, I understand it must have been tough for the other person talking to me also. I'm happy when I see my friends happy, but then I realise I'm not exactly part of what made them happy which makes me kind of regretful. I don't know. The best experience I've had this year, so far, would be B.B.C, and I miss it greatly. I just want to feel that way again. It feels really empty inside. Sigh, I suddenly feel like the annoying puppy that needs attention hahahaha.
I WANT THESE FOUR MONTHS TO PASS BY QUICKLY, I NEED JAN 2010 TO HAPPEN ASAP. Though I know after which I would start missing everyone again.